So many thoughts...

As our baby girl rolls around in my belly I can't help but thinking about the day of her arrival...and how nervous and anxious it makes me. I've gotten back to feeling the exhaustion of pregnancy like I am back in the first trimester, and while I try to get some rest and she lets me know shes there, I start to think about how quickly she will be here...and I freak out...a little bit. Oh who am I kidding...a Lot-a bit. Hormones have been going ridiculous lately, and while it's making things a little hard, I can't help but be thankful I haven't had to deal with it the entire pregnancy. All in all, considering the amazing form of life taking place inside of me, it hasn't been so bad.

As I sit here, hot and tired and emotional and thinking of all the things I should get up and do; (Andy's at a softball game), I can't help but think of a gazillion other things; this pregnant journey, how soon she will be here, what delivery will be like, how my life will forever be changed, the paranoia of having a child in this somewhat scary world, and on the contrary all the beautiful things this life has to offer, if I will be a good mom, and on and on. For crying out loud, I've never even really changed a diaper. I find myself getting overwhelming anxiety about a lot of things.

But the one thing that I don't have anxiety about, is how great a Daddy this little girl is going to have. As her arrival gets closer and Andy's pats to my belly get more frequent, I become more and more thankful that I met such an amazing person. I am so thankful for this life and the direction it is headed. I love my husband, I love this little baby, I love my life. From the early days of dating, to marriage, to having a little one on the way, I'm left speechless, and ready to open this new chapter in life. Andy, I love you.

Sweet Baby Girl...

Our baby girl can yawn and blink! This picture shows her face straight on with her sweet little mouth in a full yawn and her eyes blinking; makes me wonder what she sees in there. This appointment has made us so extremely excited for her to get here. And I think she will be coming a week early...I am saying June 5th, we will see if I am right. =)

We decided to get the 3d/4d and I am so glad that we did! Even though the umbilical cord was across her face we were able to see her chubby little cheeks, her plump little lips and her cute as a button nose as if she were here in the flesh. During the ultrasound she yawned numerous times, she opened and closed her eyes like she was looking right back at us, and she even managed to kick herself in the face, gently of coarse. =) She opened and closed her mouth like she was carrying on a conversation and she let us know when she was finished with her close-up by turning on her other side. It was just another moment in this amazing adventure that reiterates to us the miracle of life and how things should never be taken for granted. This little baby girl is one of the best things to ever happen to Andy and I...and we are pretty excited and happy about our little accomplishment.

And as if all of the pictures of her weren't cute enough (to me anyway), Andy just HAD to get his little baby girl a pink wagon in which he has already begun customizing, and a little John Deere Layette set with floppy hat, and all the whistles and bells. It's pretty much adorable. I have been surrounded by all things adorable today. My life...is splendid; an amazing husband, a beautiful baby girl and great family for support. I am blessed.

(Pictures of the wagon to come once its finished)

Life Progressions...

I've been meaning to write on here for a while, but looking for the right words has been a bit of a challenge. Such a momentous event, leaves me nothing but speechless.

A single cell progressed into our little sesame seed, our little sesame seed progressed into a little plum, and now that plum has become 'our little girl'; a full fledged little one growing inside me, heart beating at 150 beats per minute...created magically through the love of two people.

Momentous events happen throughout life, but I could have never been prepared for this one, it has brought whole new meaning to the word 'life'. Life truly is a progression of moments, moments that turn into events, events that turn into memories; forever impressed into the mind and heart.

I pray that this little girl of ours; loves life, sees joy in the little things, and embraces nature. That she feels our love and compassion as parents, and finds comfort in us as a confidant and friend. I pray she truly knows how much she is loved, and how grateful we are to have been given her. Life truly is a blessed thing.

7 weeks 1 day

11 weeks 1 day

21 weeks 4 days

Our little one is scheduled to make her appearance on June 13th.
We can't wait to meet you.

Giving Thanks, Laughing, Crying, and so Amazed!

So many things to be thankful for! And this one takes the cake. Today has been one of the most incredible, beautiful, momentous days of my life, and for that, I can't give enough thanks. Andy and I are in our 10th week, going on 11 in a couple of days, and our ultrasound today was one of the coolest things I have ever witnessed. After the humdrum and annoying wait in the doctors office, the doc finally came in and listened for a heartbeat. Unable to detect anything, we were a little bummed, but Doc said this early, he has never been able to hear one, and recommended we go ahead and have another ultrasound since we were there. And unbeknown to Andy and I, our whole journey to this point would take on a whole new incredible meaning. We were expecting to see a picture different from the one 4 weeks ago, but what we weren't expecting to see was the Leader of a Marching Band! (Andy's adorable words) Our precious sesame seed has graduated on to becoming a wee little plum, and it was flailing it's little arms all over the place. When the doc would push on it, it would buck like a little bronco and flail those tiny little arms all over again, it was simply...amazing. Andy and I, are at a loss for words, this is simply one of the coolest things either of us have ever experienced, unsure whether to laugh or cry, or laugh AND cry, this is so cool! In the past 4 weeks, our little motionless bean sprout has become a moving, living, growing, breathing, marching band leading, arms flailing, little person! And pretty much the cutest little punkin' head I ever did see. So this Thanksgiving, I have many thanks, and not enough words.

In the picture, the head is on the right, and the little white spot above it, is a little arm. Legs to the left...Our Little Plum. =)

Have you ever...

Have you ever wandered lonely through the woods?
And everything there feels just as it should

You're part of the life there

You're part of something good

If you've ever wandered lonely through the woods

As the leaves changed their colors my feet sprouted wings
and up I flew all the way home

From The Sky

Exhausted beauty. This picture was taken from the plane on the way to San Juan, Puerto Rico. Flying over the ocean you wouldn't think you would see much, but in these parts there are little tiny islands all over the place. Everytime I looked out the window there would be another little island, some of them small enough you could probably walk around in 20 minutes. It wasn't even close to the beauty of what was to come however!

Why the exhausted part? We left Salt Lake International at about 1:00 am and we didn't arive in San Juan until about 2:00 in the afternoon. With a layover in Georgia and cramped plane seats, there wasn't much chance of sleeping. And anyone that knows me, knows I don't do well without sleep. This was the 'rough' part of the trip. But well worth it in the end. =)

I have never seen this on any of the other trips I have taken, but it was pretty neat to be able to see where you were at at all times. The picture above was taken about the same time as this one, so you can see where I was at over the ocean.

Finally decending into Puerto Rico. We were coming for our landing and I snapped a shot. The cloud cover was pretty neat!

Through my eyes

I have seen a lot of beautiful things, and have captured many of them with the lens of my camera. I was going through a bunch of photos and here are a few of the ones I like the most. I remember the moments as if they were yesterday, I smell the air and feel the breeze on my face. Aww, the beauty of it all...everything. No excuses...Carpe Diem.